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Recently I've come across some really amazing blogs and they've really touched me. To see so many women share their hearts and experiences has inspired me to do the same. I'm definitely not the writer that many of them are, but I'll do my best to convey a clear thought every now and then. My hope for this blog is to let it be a place where I can get it all out. To share in the joys of our current position, to reflect on on the pain that got us here and to praise the One who saw us through it all!

A little back story:

My hubby, D, and I are high school sweethearts. We dated for 3 1/2 years before marrying at age 20 in 2004. We always knew we wanted children and always assumed it would come as easily for us as it did for the next guy. Boy were we wrong! We tried for 3 years on our own before turning to a fertility specialist in 2008. After all the test, exams and one surgery where a little endo was removed and 1 polyp in each fallopian tube, the doctors gave us one of the most frustrating diagnoses: Unexplained Infertility. With not much hope given by our doctors and a feeling of unrest with moving forward, we felt God leading us in another direction...

Adoption had always been a topic of conversation for us. When we were first married we talked about how we would love to adopt one day. We dreamed of how adoption would cap off our perfectly laid out family. Little did we know that the seeds of adoption that God was sewing into our hearts wasn't a far off dream about capping off a family, but would be in our immediate future of building our precious family.

Where we are now:

In December 2009, after going through one failed private adoption earlier in the year, we signed with our agency and shortly after became a waiting family. It was so exciting! Finally we felt the resistance of the struggle leaving us... we we're headed in the right direction! After only a few months of waiting we got the call that we'd been hoping for, we'd been picked by an expectant mother! My knees buckled, my hands started shaking and my eyes filled with tears. I could hardly retain any information being told to me until our social worker told me the expectant moms name, C. When I heard her name, my heart stopped. She shared the name that we had long since picked out as our future (almost imaginary at times) daughters middle name. I felt God smile, knowing he knew that I could see his hand in it all. A few months later in August, after having an amazing meeting with C and her family, our precious daughter was born! What love we felt the moment we saw her! We were finally a family! A family of 3? Yes. A new family of much, much more? Absolutely. We've been blessed to have our adoption with our daughters bfamily open up more and more and it's proving to be an amazing experience, with many emotions, questions and definite reward!